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| so...we moved from main to e.8th in oct and stayed until nov., moved from e.8th to e.34 in november, the most likely move from e.34th to somewhere. super sad and fustrated having to move so many times in the last 2 months just wish to settle down and start to feel "having time" | | |
| i was so depressed today after failing my oral exam, walking home without an umbrella, missing the bus, but then steve visited me...he is such as sweet guy! | | |
| ok...it's bitching time again. i guess i only write down negative things. life in the past month was more than hectic. moving out of the main street home, which i had lived for more than 10 years, is a big big change. altho it is a bad neighborhood but its location is lso convenient..now i have to do 1 transfer to go to DT, metrotown, 2 transfer to chinatown and 1 transfer to work. then eventually we moved to this place on E.8th but then we only stay here for 1 month; we will move to a place on kingsway next week! God, i hate moving so so much especially when you are so busy with work and finishing up training and all the exams and such. now, i really have to triple think before i buy anything. i promise not to buy anything heavy or big until i get a place of my own! training is coming to an end, almost. this also implies that the next 3 or 4 weeks will be like hell for me! i just hope things will go as planned and i will be qualified soon...i will super celebrate once i am qualified. hmmm...what should i do to reward myself. with work and moving and studying and a part-time job i am amazed at how much i can handle at once. i guess i am not as weak as i thought but i just want to have a relaxed life. not thing too dramatic | | |
| things start to go so bad...somehow i am getting more and more impatient with my mom. does she nag more now or i am just "too busy" for her? now that we have to find a place to more to and challenged with exams i feel like there's not enough time...so much pressure now. | | |
| today i feel rested..haven't felt like this for a while. since january i don't really have 2 days off consecutively too often but now with the compressed work week i can have up to 3 days per week if i don't work at hsbc. had sometime to clean up my room and i intend to keep it tidy. tonight i also prepared 2 super delicious meal: black pepper chicken and black been stir fry beef with green onion. altho i bought the pre-preped sauce but nonethless i put in lots of effort of buying stuff from chinatown, sliced the beef and chicken, cut the vegetable etc. tonight i had a very satisfied dinner...i think i want to at least make some decent dinner at home once per week. now that i got a stable job, i start to think a lot about my next step in life: save money to buy a condo? with increasing mortgage rate and real estate price it's getting more and more impossible to get something decent in vancouver. with what i am making now i don't think i can afford even a tiny condo in the next 5 years...sigh so sad. another thing is i can't beleive that there's only one month till the end of summer ..what the hell????????? i don't even feel the heat and the summer feel! i haven't gone to the beach enough yet and i haven't even swim once in the ocean yet and i haven't gone pinic with my friends yet in stanley park...ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! i haven't even worn the dresses i bought from London yet! so much i want to do but always feel like to busy that i don't have time to do those things. i don't want to go out all by myself but often i am afraid to initiate any activities because i don't want any negative answers...i feel like i am slowly getting back to the shy sheltered girl once was. STRINGS ATTACHED! I MISS THE FREEDOM IN WINNIPEG! ALTHO I DON'T LIKE THE WEATHER BUT THAT WAS THE ONLY TIME I FELT FULLY LIBERATED! | | |
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